The Marriage Pact

I finished this book last week and I still can’t believe it. From the beginning, I was instantly pulled into the lives of Alice and Jake. I found myself screaming at them not to sign the contract (yes, I get that involved in my reading!). Of course, they didn’t listen to me. From the moment the newlyweds signed their contracts, their marriage was no longer theirs. The Pact’s rules were meant to be followed to a “T”. And if broken, no matter how small, your charge could be deemed a misdemeanor or felony. Your punishment, anything from wearing a bracelet, a neck brace, or jail time (yes, jail time!).  This book kept me interested from beginning to end. However, the ending was not what I expected. It sort of let me down in the last chapter, but not enough to ruin the book for me. All in all, I enjoyed the story and will be reading other books by this author.

I give this book 4 STARS!

Grey’s Anatomy: Lives Given

Recap: Stadler is dead! At long last the monster is gone. Show of hands, how many of you thought Jo and Karev tried to kill the ex-husband? Neither did I. I didn’t see Jo being that vindictive; and Karev already had his chance to kill Stadler and didn’t take it. Side-note: Meredith was hilarious!

Back on topic, Sadler was last seen threatening Jo. He told her that now that he knew where she was, he would keep in touch. The next time we see him, he’s screaming in pain and bleeding out in a bed. Once everything came out, we found out he was hit by a drunk driver. His fiancé Jenny finally got up the nerve to tell him she was leaving him. Sadler became so enraged that he tried to attack her, lost his balance, and hit his head on the edge of the bed. His brain began to swell, and Sadler was diagnosed brain dead.

Though Sadler’s demise was tied up in a pretty bow, it was Jo’s ending decision that changed this entire episode for me. Since she was still married to Sadler, it was left up to Jo to make a final decision on what should happen to him. Jo decided to donate his organs. I thought this was a beautiful way to put an end to a monster. He’d spent his entire life tormenting others and now his organs would be used for good.

As I said before, Sadler’s death was tied in a neat, little bow. Of course, in real life abusive relationships do not end this way. I’m sure some of you wish it they did. I, for sure am one of them. However, I did learn a very important lesson from these past couple of weeks of Grey’s Anatomy. Forgiveness is an amazing thing. It’s also the best revenge. So, my advice is to forgive yourself and your abuser. It’s not about them; it’s about you moving on with your life. See you on TGIT!!

~Be Blessed~

 

Grey’s Anatomy

Tonight, Grey’s Anatomy played out one of my biggest fears. If you don’t watch the show, you should. The season premiere portrayed a part of my life that I fear every day.  I’m sure you already know, but Jo Wilson’s abusive husband has found her. Jo finally found the courage to send him divorce papers and instead of signing them and sending them back, he showed up at Seattle Grace. With a new fiancé. Needless to say, Jo is in shock and fear. She does everything to keep it together, but eventually loses it and blows up at the chief when he rains accolades on the great Dr. Paul Stadler.

The reason this episode hit so close to home for me is because I live with this fear daily. I work across from the prison where my abuser is being held. On a daily basis I fear that he will walk into my office. I know you’re wondering how that would occur, so let me explain. In our building there are inmates that help the cleaning and maintenance staff. When I realized that my ex was being held in the prison across the street from my job I knew there was just a matter of time before he would show up. Now I can’t do anything about his or my location but my anxiety about him hangs over my head every day. I’m sure some of you may think that I’m overreacting, but  he still writes me and tells me that he’ll never let me go. I think I have a right to overreact. I take my safety extremely serious. As a person who’s been stalked and even to some small extent I still am. I have to be careful.

Tonight’s show brought out emotions that I wasn’t ready to face. It was too real and too painful. I’d somehow made myself believe that I was no longer afraid of him, that I’d moved on. I still believe that I am not  afraid of him and I have definitely moved on. I’m just extremely careful, right?

~Be Blessed~

P.S. I love Grey’s Anatomy!!

Words and Wine

A great time was had by all this weekend! Tomorrow’s best sellers showed up. Thank you to Angela Kay Austin, Jae Henderson, and Lar’Juanette Williams for including me in this event.

                                  

First Read of the Year!

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Newlyweds Alice and Jake are a picture-perfect couple. Alice, once a singer in a well-known rock band, is now a successful lawyer. Jake is a partner in an up-and-coming psychology practice. Their life together holds endless possibilities. After receiving an enticing wedding gift from one of Alice’s prominent clients, they decide to join an exclusive and mysterious group known only as The Pact.

The goal of The Pact seems simple: to keep marriages happy and intact. And most of its rules make sense. Always answer the phone when your spouse calls. Exchange thoughtful gifts monthly. Plan a trip together once per quarter. . . .

Never mention The Pact to anyone.

Alice and Jake are initially seduced by the glamorous parties, the sense of community, their widening social circle of like-minded couples.

And then one of them breaks the rules.

The young lovers are about to discover that for adherents to The Pact, membership, like marriage, is for life. And The Pact will go to any lengths to enforce that rule.

For Jake and Alice, the marriage of their dreams is about to become their worst nightmare.

Let’s get started!!

Words with Angela Kay Austin & Friends

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Making the decision to take a chance on a dream can be difficult. It’s even harder, if you do it alone. Angela Kay Austin and her friends: Jae Henderson and Laura T. Johnson are here to answer your questions. If you’ve always wanted to know answers to questions like: where do I find an editor, how do I submit to a publisher or what is an anthology, join Angela Kay Austin and her friends to discover the answers.

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Blame

From fearless to fearful, from laughing to screaming.

From happiness to sorrow.

All these things have one common denominator: YOU!

I know I shouldn’t blame you for everything, but I do.

I blame you for taking away my innocence,

For forcing me into situations that I have never been in.

I blame you for never listening to reason.

I blame you for all these things and more.

You promised to always protect me, to put me before anyone, except God.

You promised me all these things and you broke every one of them.

After all the lies and broken promises, I just wanted to say…

I forgive you and I love you.

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Words from the Abused

How did I get in this situation? When did loving this man turn into this? When did his gentle touches turn into slaps and punches? And most importantly, when did loving him become so hard? I have asked these questions so many times. All these questions and more would run through my mind daily. With no answer in sight.

If you don’t know, let me be the first one to tell you. ABUSE IS WRONG!! It is never okay to stay in a relationship where you feel threatened in anyway. Please know that love is not supposed to hurt. In my own relationship, I thought that if he saw that I would stand by him no matter what, he would change his ways and be the man I thought he could be. In other words, I tried to change him. Not possible!!

Out of everything that he put me through, I never once considered leaving him. Not until the very end anyway. Oh, sure I tried to leave him alone. Especially, after the first sexual assault. But he apologized a million times and eventually I started talking myself into believing him. I would tell myself that it was mistake that we just got our timing wrong and it was a misunderstanding. Of course, I was lying to myself. But, I wanted him to love me.

I remember fighting so hard to keep my sanity, keep him happy, and keep my family from finding out. All those things can take a toll on you physical and mentally. Before long I was suffering from depression. I couldn’t get out bed most mornings because it felt like a two-ton weight was on my chest. I couldn’t get through my mornings without feeling like I had run a hundred-mile marathon. It was one of the hardest things that I have ever been through.

I wanted to share this with you to show that you can come out of anything. That you are stronger than this. Do what my mother told me to do, “get out of that bed and stand on your own feet!” This is not the end of your life! Stand tall and strong!